Mental　Paranoia

I`m considering to go to fanime.

Considering.

Still have college even AFTER christmas, and it`s not over till friday. Then I have no school till the next friday.

Fuck my Uni.

Not to mention they said I wouldn`t be getting my computer back and then they give me a new one today-

shittier than the last one.

Last Dynabook PC they gave me at least had Microsoft Word.
This one only gets the Core 2 Duo. And a finger-security shit that makes the Core 2 Duo overwork itself.

I`m already miserable as I am right now living in a tarded place with a curfew thanks to my parents.

CRAPPIEST Christmas I`ve ever had as of yet.

I hope my dad gets a clue I absolutely HATE this place I live in right now cause I constantly BITCH at the fucking guy.

Gonna go play the PS3 for a bit and sleep now.

...called FolksSoul in Japan. Went to TGS on Monday when it was open for the general public. BF didn`t join as the booth he wanted to go to wasn`t there this year.

After learning the PS3 can connect to the internets, I decided I`d buy one -and grabbed a 60GB. Along with FolksSoul.

Note: Currently I am connected briefly @ the internet cafe.

Because the voices are in English I totally thought it was made NOT in Japan which I ended up being wrong X_X

Seems like the release date in the US is still yet to come.

Game reminds me a lot of Threads of Fate (Dewprism), and seems a bit like the Wii system cause there`s lots of pulling.

....Which makes me glad I didn`t buy a Wii.

I do love Nintendo, but my LAZY factor in playing a game is VERY. The slight Pulling up of the Controller, the moving it side to side is REALLY annoying to do.

It`s a good game though. Just not something I can play when I`m honestly dead tired at the middle of the night but want a distraction from drinking Tea(Dimbula).

I will hopefully be registering for the internet connection soon now that I have something that can actually connect to the internet. Construction takes about a month to do, so we`ll see about how fast it would be done :X

College told me that they`re not replacing that NotePC which burned in the fire. Which in a way sucks, but it`s also becoming the "Ha I told you this piece of shit was just expensive and not useful" to my Father. Insurance doesn`t cover everything, and that Dynabook didn`t even have an internalized CD drive. Hopefully when I buy a new one it will be something WITH a CD drive, and really wishful thinking here but Dual core.

On a side note, I bought a SD13 fully Customized. My BSSB Bunny of the first batch died in the fire, so this is something to replace it.

I bought some more putty for the gun today since my last supply ran out :X

instead of 120g, I decided on 1kg worth of it <3

My lips are cracked from the cold.

I gotta do something before Decadence tomorrow ;_;

Finally got around to getting a heat knife.

Things are going smoother thanks to it, but I`m also killing my fingers because I somehow fail to not cut myself while making it. I`m getting some burns, I`m getting some cuts :X

Both of which suck to have.

I have the edges smoothed over but I`d love to get a sandpaper-machine thingie because I`ve still got some that are rather jaggedy :X

I think the gun is too big for my hands :X I figured this out once I tried holding the gun :X It`s too late to fix this now; hopefully when I wear gloves it will help.

Now I will go back to my distraction (Castlevania) instead of working on my gun :X

I`ve been planning to cosplay Yazoo for quite a while now and never got around to making the prop :X So I FINALLY decide on starting it :X Right now I`m waiting for the Lionboard to finish drying (putty) before I do other stuff.

I just noticed I need a pair of pants too :X Gotta make some when I have the time :X (or find similar pants to match @_@)

I learned I need to get one of those hot-cutters because I thought my fingers would fall off from all the scraping I did with an exacto knife.

There`s lots of Red sharpie marks on me :X It must have rubbed off the lion board onto me. I should take a bath and get it all off because I look like I have lots of small cuts. The putty looks like flesh coming off so I need to get that off too ;_;

I still have to buy a wig but I`m too lazy :X There`s so many things to do but Laziness attacks ;_;

Apparently this blog site has started to come up with rankings. I HATE THESE cause they make me all depressed after a long assed while.

However, much to my surprise, this english version of the blog is faring much MUCH better than my Japanese one ^^;

Anyways, moving away from that:

Soshi(who is an ELT over here) is battling with Yahoo!BB/Softbank and Hikari Net. She needs internet access to get schedules (work stuff), YET ISP wants to be all "hey we can`t read your Gaijin Card" "Get a Fluent Japanese Speaker with you" etc.etc.

It`s been about 2 months+ yet she hasn`t gotten the talk through. Amazingly, I understand that frusteration cause my bf experienced something very similar to that ^^;

I ran out of things to say now.

I haven`t felt so embarassed in so long :X

I went to Harajuku today. I picked up a Putumayo coat that was for a comission, and then went shopping for myself.

I got myself used Auaa armwarmers. They`re mighty long and are I can`t get my hands to actually "stick out" where they`re supposed to be.

I then went around Urahara looking for Na+H. I got lost and hit the end of the road, so I went into the Sexy Dynamite London store that was there. The staff was a beauty D: He had his hear and everything up Cid Vicious -style and looked damn good in it. He`s a bith gothy and had eyeliner on him though. :< I ended up buying a winter skirt from SDL -a Tartan with fur trims on the bottom. It`s sexy.

After this I managed to find Na+H and that the shirt I`ve been drooling over still exists so I went to a store where I`ve always had my eyes on: Takuya Angel.

Actually, I haven`t ALWAYS put my eyes on it. I heard about it last month and because they seemed rather expensive I thought I would go and check their quality out. Good god, I used to think Indies brands like these never do good with how they sew the clothes. This store is really good about making their clothes sturdy and comfortable. It`s got inner lining in it which is why their clothing is so very expensive. They had Fukubukuros Available so I bought the 20000yen one. It contained a pair of pants, shirt, a ribbon, a cord, a button, stickers, badge.

The pants are FUCKING adorable. They apparently cost a good 30000yen or so had I bought it individually. The shirt I`m not fond of ;_; The badge is adorable and I think this will be on my fuzz hat. It`s got a bunny on it <3
I need to figure out how to use the ribbon and cord :X

Anyways, after that I was tired and I came back home. I think I`ll make Lasagnia and then clean my room :3

h.Naoto had their lovely ass sale and I bought two bags. They were both 50% off how could I resist ;_;

(Technically I should have resisted cause I bought/recieved/UFO-caught 9 bags now)



I bought two because I had trouble deciding. I now dub the backpack-bag as my textbook bag and the fleece(?) bag to be my computer bag. The computer bag looks like it has enough cushion for my computer.

I`m disappointed that they didn`t have their Pannier-skirts for sale :X

So I think I`m becoming a troll now. I really can`t help it when there`s this girl who titles a thread "Have you ever thought you wanted to die" and writes:



Japanese girls, (this is a Japanese BBS btw) are seriously TWIGS compared to Americans.

Me personally, I`m all YES, YES YOU SHOULD DIE. Let Darwin`s Evolution theory do it`s job.I ended up commenting a bit nicer than that and said pretty much you have a weak will and I think you should fix that".

Dunno who but someone went and said "GOD WE`RE NOT SO MENTALLY STRONG LIKE YOU YOU SHOULDN`T BE SAYING THINGS LIKE THAT BITCH"

To which I just comment "THANKS BUT IF YOU CAN SAY THAT YOU`RE PRETTY FUCKING STRONG-MINDED YOURSELF."

Of course there are more people that over-ride the fools that are the whiners so I don`t need to be fucking corrected.

Thank god for the Hidden thing. They can`t track me down XD

This song has been playing in an endless loop for the past few days.

Now I want this in Mp3. Please go and find it for me ;_;

Lyrics to the crazy song translated :3